Music, my freedom in life

2006-10-14T02:03:00.000+08:00

PRomOs are OVER! HUrray! TT means play, play and play! Time to brush up on music skills too! BUT i dun seem to be doing tt these days. PW, WRITTEN REPORT, CHINESE 'A's.............the list goes on. It just woudnt stop. Saddening. Worst of all! monday's release of results! ARHW! I dun thk i did well.....most prob retaining! Sianz...

ENOUGH OF BAD STUFFS! Anyway today went to Marina for steamboat with classmates. Its quite fun though. Ate the same old stuffs in tt same old stall. Well the surprising thing was tt none of them took a pickup b4! And tts how we were transported there. Screams, shocked faces, laughter while looking at others' hair getting messed up.......hmm.....tt sure is unexpected! Overall its a wonderful class outing though some couldnt attend. Enjoyed quite a lot there. and SUANING tt zhu juan was as usual, fun. wahahah cch and i followed her home.....wanted to slp in her hse. When we were near her doorstep, the pathetic look on her face, smiling and at the same time begging us to stop was indeed an entertainment for me. Wahahaha damn sadistic! arhh.....well ZJ i thk i should stop now... arent i bad in doing those stuffs to u?! hmm.....but seriously why are u so easily suaned in the first place? I thk it has become part of my life to suan u. Well if tts so, all i can say is......OOHHH sooooo saddd! wahahahhaah If ure reading this post, just bear with it since you've tolerated me for so long, why not just continue? Enjoy being suaned for a few more weeks cos ya noe, if things turn out bad, nxt year's no more suaning from me anymore.

2006-09-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

Melody!!! I shall update soon when i have the time. Anw to pple from ny.....we shall rock the hell out after promos. Its killing me. Stuck at home to mug! Eewww

2006-08-19T02:20:00.000+08:00

Yo melody,

My doom day is arriving! In just arnd 40 days! Ive got 6 sub and approx 10 chapters each for the main ones. And guess what? I havta finish one topic in one day if i forsake the language sub so as to sufficiently prepare for it. Lolx WHAT TO DO??? *constant ringing in my ears: am i gonna r_t_in?? I feel weak but the spur is there now! My greatest challenge to turn the present 4Ugraded into ??? That will determine my fate. Tts all for tdy.....toot mode HAS been ACTIVATED! Full time mugger button triggered. GRRRRAAHHHHHHHHHH...........cmon cmon...........i shall fight u!!!!

2006-08-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

Dear melody,

Its been sometime since my last post.
I might not update frequent lately cos im seriously too busy for now.
Life's worse than before.
Loads of shit accumulating.
Lost lost lost im still lost!
What to do?
Zhou3 zhe4 qiAO2 ba4
Aims to promote for now.
So long.......we shall see

2006-08-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

Dear melody,

Finally! I'm more or less done with this bloggy outline. Though not up to my expectations yet! haha must improve! lol Tdy is a freaking long day. i reached hm at 10. Lessons ended at 6 plus followed by band! hais played folk song suite tdy. Fairly easy. Still rmb drilling tt piece when i was sec 2. Hmmm....the 32 bar solo was my second solo in concerts. Screwed up a lil. oh wells no more kiddy stuffs now though. Still rmb hearing the third mvmt on 92.4 FM b4 the A level chinese listening. Hmm.....noah's ark was interesting. Presently the most appealing piece to me since i stepped into NY. But sadly its only for sidereading. Cmon! i need more challenging stuffs! I wanna play orchestral works! Extreme classics and pop. Not average ones! Fifth symphony, riverdance, godzilla etc. I wanna play soundtracks! Lord of the rings, superman! Arhhhh! so many nice pieces! when will i get to play them? *waits patiently* hopefully i wun leave with unfulfilled goals when i graduate.

2006-08-09T00:23:00.000+08:00

Dear melody,

I've decided to create you and treat u as a listener cos i love ur name! It just fits my interest! Music, life, expression, opportunity, leader and etc all fits tt name of urs! Just feels weird blogging useless stuffs without "humanity" involved. Anyway today is seriously a very tiring and long day! In school, we had this fund raising programme for the elderly at geylang and toa payoh. We got the boon kheng farrer park and lil india district. It was a fun experience with the class but seriously tiring. First stop was boon kheng. First time there. Damn ulu. Like u can walk the whole stretch of shops and count the no of pple u see with ur fingers! lolx sianz! then went level to level. Wasnt effective either. Well went to lil india after tt. And guess what? Cch and me were interviewed. Well we might appear on channel 8 news anytime this week. Lolx! I look weird in tt video! Shits! but YAY! Quite fun la.

Went for pw after tt. But sch com lab closed. No com = no WR. Unexpected change so meeting sorta cancelled. Well smth after this cropped up. Too tired to tell u le. haha
Change of plans! went bandminton-ing at kovan CC instead. 2 hours of hardcore playing! SHIOK arh! lolx. Rushed to meet class to watch fireworks straight after. Was freaking late. too much of hardcore is baaaddd! Hmmm i learned my lesson. Sounds wrong though. Arh.....the fireworks not bad la. But not as good as the countdown one i thk. We actually bought two bottles of alcohol. My desire for tt damn drink! 18%.....slurps..... Arrhhhh....but din get to drink la.....went off with the grp tt wanted to eat dinner. Anyway, melody, im too tired to continue. This is a skimpy post. Dun fret.

I'm irritated, fustrated and lost.
Whoevever tts closest to me doesn't understand me
I tried but my views aren't supported
We are different.
I like challenges and would risk to experience.
They hate obstacles and would stay on the safest spot found.
We quarrel often cos we have different viewpoints.
Sometimes i hope they are non existent provided i'll survive without em
My interest is not impt to them
I dun see the reason to life the same way she does
She thinks with MATERIALISTIC enjoyment and sufficient MONEY is enjoyment and hence one should seek for that
He doesn't mind and tries to understand but isn't able to support me financially
I see the reason TO LIVE is to ENJOY what i LOVE to do
and to me, enjoyment is NOT abt materialistic things
Its purely what i FEEL
I wan excitement, sence of accomplishment, thrill, challenge and all kinds of feelings!
I wan THAT not MONEY and MATERIALISTIC things only!
I can forsake materialistic enjoy for feelings. No branded goods, no private house no cars and etc is ok. A normal 4 room HDB flat, money to eat is alright for now.
Im young! I wanna experience what i like to do!
Im not doing what i want to now.
I feel like im drifting aimlessly because i dun find joy in it.
I chose it partially because of them
They showed inderect but obvious reactions to me choosing what i wanna do
First qs frm her. "u think u very good in this? Ur teacher got say u very good in this? How many...." SIANZ
i dun wan a life thats just LIVING TO EAT! and I MEAN EAT!
what for come to this world just to live eat live. Money for living.
tts not for me. BIG NO. i wan to live to enjoy what i do!
i can so call imagine myself in the future
what will i be doing? with what im studying now?
Certainly no choice but yes.
Will i enjoy working with "these" when i already felt smth for another?
Certainly no.
Can i do something to change it?
Yes of course i can earn $$$ first and then go on learning what i love to do but i feel left out. I feel late! Im a frequent latecomer. But only towards things i cant be bothered. I dun wanna feel slower than my batch! Esp what i WAN TO DO! My urge to obtain the perfect state!
I thk they dun understand what i need
i feel that they think what i like to do is not appropriate
Im really tried................im lost........i need some sparks in my life. Will someone lead me to my destiny? =X

2006-08-07T19:30:00.000+08:00

Its been so long since i started this dumb thing. 5 days i guess. Oh wells i might just revert back to the thking tt this bloggy thing is such a waste of my time! Gosh! why am i setting this up....hmm trendy? or do i desperately need a platform to express my erm.....or whatever! This just sucks. Well hope it'll be done soon and i mean SOON. lolx
Btw was thking abt the concert with YPSB last week. Didn't really went well but overall quite a pleasant experience with those kids huh. Got to know some nice pple and of course weird ones too. I miss those practices! Yeah i mean it!

2006-08-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

I feel damn irritated getting this bloggy thing done! Arhh im damn noob at this! Feel so eeeewww! lolx